I can see clearly now

It does not stop snowing - and it hasn't since christmas. Which is lovely, although the only way I have enjoyed is through my windows, I have not been outside for what seems like an eternity! (not like Mr. F who could not believe how cold this weird white substance was when playing with his papa in the snow).

Oh yes. 16 weeks later Im still here with my (not too) big pregnant belly. Who would have believed it?? Certainly not Morten - the royal doctor who says he cannot predict anything for me since this case has defied all odds. It has been a rollercoster ride from the day I entered the hospital and was told our baby might be born well ahead of time and possibly not survive. All those days lying in the bed, reading, knitting, watching tv to pass time and meeting all sorts of people in the hospital maternity ward. I even have a full baby blanket and some knitted clothes to show for it. Now we are nearing the end and thankfully its getting easier. I can even participate in the household at home, feed Mr. F, pretend we have a normal life and look forward to hectic days in the spring with two boys "running" around.

Its week 35 and in two weeks the cerclage will be taken out. Which could mean I could go into labour. Or not. Who knows? I dont plan anything anymore. In any case I wont go longer than 38 weeks due to the Cholestasis. Oh yes. the liver disease is back and the itching that goes with it. Doctors do not take any chances and apparently there is nothing to gain from keeping the baby in after 38 weeks if you have obstetric cholestasis. This very weird complication seems to be not very well understood. It is believed it might be genetic (but no one in my family had ever heard about it or got it) and it might also be linked to environmental factors (such as the seasonal changes, more women are diagnosed in the winter for example, and some think diet could also affect this liver abnormality). No one knows for sure.

So like I said to the midwife last week, I dont think I am made to have children...she laughed and replied "No certainly not". Somehow we made it work though :)

for more information on cholestasis see here